A Passage to India

Beauty and ugliness.  Humanity at its best and worst.  Colonizers and natives.  Muslims, Christians and Hindus.  This is A Passage to India.  Although beautifully write, it is often perplexing.  This story asks the questions, "Can English and Indians be friends?" He tries to make them friends, to force them into friendship, to explore the idea of friendship, but it doesn't work.  No matter how the friendship is manipulated and molded in the prose, it doesn't work.  Forster can not make them friends.

The best moments of the books are when Aziz ponders hospitality and the Indian mind.  He is my favorite character, there is a grace a dignity about this man, as well as a shroud of mystery.  Is he as gracious as he seems, or is the messy living quarters the indication of something different.  Maybe his internal world is a mess.  He longs for relationship, but different events occur to keep him from experiencing the intimacy he longs for.

Then there is Adela Quested, she is not my favorite character.  She is clearly not meant to be a favorite, but a sort of antagonist.  She wants to see India, but not Indians.  She is confused by the social arrangements and the customs.  She finds India to be disturbing and disorienting.

I want to have the literary chops to discuss a  book like this, but I don't.  I can skim the surface, ask a few questions, but the analysis alludes me.   What is the symbolism of the echo?  It is too odd, to not have meaning.  Or the section titles, they must also have meaning beyond describing location.  There is so much symbolism in this book, this is where the internet becomes my friend and teacher.  It is my guide to symbolism and imagery.

This book is not going to be for everyone, but if you get a chance, pick up a copy at the library and read the last two paragraphs and marvel at the beauty.

Classics

I'm not very organized and I'm not systematic, but my reading has a rhythm to it.  I read for pleasure. I read for renewal. I read to my kids. I read through a classics list. I read books on education. I read books on psychology. I read to grow spiritually.  I read what my kids are reading for school, which has the added bonus of knocking books off my Well-Educated Mind Classics list and often brings pleasure.

Like many adults, I wonder why did I never read these books when I was in school.  I read a few, The Red Badge of Courage, Anne of Green Gables, Huckleberry Finn, The Scarlet Letter  and of course the Shakespearean plays, Julius Caesar, Romeo and Juliet, and Hamlet.  And there was the time in 9th grade when I read Anna Karenina and turned in a book report where I missed the whole point, because I didn't have the life experience to get the whole point.  That was a sad day.  Anna Karenina turned out to be one of my favorite books after I did the hard work of unearthing the whole point.  That is the point of the classics, some are fun and you read them for pleasure, but most of them require some digging.  They require thought, exploration, and often a dictionary, coffee is optional, but also a good plan. They are meant to be read with a pencil in hand and a notebook nearby. They are quotable and deliberate.  They speak to an age past and they speak for an age to come.

I have been reading through The Well-Educated Mind Classics list beginning with fiction and moving my way through the different genres.  Susan Wise Bauer suggests reading through the books in order, but I am also reading with my kids in school and so I've ended up reading most of these books out of order.  I hope to blog about most of these books, at least the ones that have an impact on me.

The Books of 2013

This is my favorite post each year.  It is where I reveal the many books I read this year, the good, the bad, and the downright ugly (thankfully there aren't many of those). Each of these books reflects a moment in time and the intersection between my life and the life of the author.  Sometimes those intersections produced profound results and sometimes it fell flat.  For those that produced extraordinarily profound effects I have bestowed awards...

Most Life changing in my day-to-day life - I no longer use a clothes dryer

Raising Elijah by Sandra Steingraber

The read aloud I couldn't finish because I was crying  and boy most likely to take over our hearts - 

Wonder by R.J. Palacio

Most likely to overtake my thoughts and conversations and drive all my friends crazy-

Quiet by Susan Cain

The Woman Who Stole my Admiration- 

Amy Carmichael by Sam Wellman

Most Heartbreaking- Addiction Sucks!

Beautiful Boy by David Sheff

Best Book to finish the Year With - Here's to  Whole and Holy 2014 

The Utter Relief of Holiness by John Eldredge

Gorilla most likely to be Adopted by the Braddys-

The One and Only Ivan by Katherine Applegate

Mom I Most Related To - Coffee, snow, writing, boys, books, need I say more

The Gift of Ordinary Days by Katherine Kennison

Classics
Pride and Prejudice by Jane Austen
Rebecca by Daphne Du Maurier - read with Classics Book Club
Secret Adversary by Agatha Christie
Woman in White by Wilkie Collins - read with Classics Book Club
Don Quixote by Migueal De Cervantes - read with Classics Book Club
Around the World in 80 Days by Jules Verne
Treasure Island by Robert Louis Stevenson

Fiction
Chocolat by Joanne Harris
Andromeda Strain by Michael Crichton - read as a part of NPR SciFri Book Club
Eyes Wide Open by Ted Dekker
Liar and Spy by Rebecca Stead
Sea of Monsters by Rick Riordan
Inferno by Dan Brown
Bones are Forever by Kathy Reich
Flight Behavior by Barabra Kingsolver
Gone Girl by GIllian Flynn - the ugly, maybe only fit for a burn pile
Heartbeat Away by Henry Kraus
Seeker of the Stars by Susan Fish
My Mother's Secret by J.L. Witterick
The Wednesday Wars by Gary Schmidt

Spirituality, Marriage and Parenting
The Utter Relief of Holiness by John Eldredge
Adopted for Life by Russell Moore
Telling Yourself the Truth by William Backus and Marie Chapian
Already Gone by Ken Ham and Brett Beemer
Reading Your Male by Mary Farrar
Becoming a Titus 2 Woman by Martha Peace - read with our elder's wives at SONrise
Habits of a Child's Heart by Valerie Hess & Marti Watson Garlett
Raising a Modern Day Joseph by Larry Fowler
Touching Wonder by John Blase
Discipleship in the Home Matt Friedman

Memoir
The Gift of Ordinary Days by Katrina Kennison
Animal, Vegetable, Mineral by Barbara Kingsolver
Chief of Station, Congo by Larry Devlin
Choosing to See by Mary Beth Chapman
Beautiful Boy by David Sheff

Schooling
Overcoming Dyslexia by Sally Shaywitz
In Defense of Childhood by Chris Mercogliano
Leadershift by Oliver Demille

Food, Science & Psychology Non-Fiction
Raising Elijah by Sandra Steingraber
Hungry for Change by James Colquhoun & Laurentine Ten Bosch
Gorillas in the Mist by Dian Fossey - read as a part of NPR SciFri Book Club
What's the worst that could happen? by Reg Craven
Quiet by Susan Cain


Fiction Read Alouds
The One and Only Ivan by Katherine Applegate
Wonder by R.J. Palacio
Wrinkle in Time by Madeleine L'Engle
When You Reach Me by Rebecca Stead
The Little Green Frog by Beth Coombe Harris
Johnny Tremain by Esther Forbes
Al Capone Does My Shirts by Gennifer Choldenko
When Will This Cruel War be Over? by Barry Denenberg
Jungle Book by Rudyard Kipling

Non-Fiction Read Alouds
The Mayflower and the Pilgrim's New World by Nathaniel Philbrick
The Last Days of Lincoln by Bill O'Reilly
Amy Carmichael by Sam Wellman
The True Saint Nicholas: why he matters to Christmas by William Bennett

Walk a Little Closer

Some books surprise you, they jump into your heart, make a home and start to become a part of you.  I was surprised by the roots Amy Carmichael by Sam Wellman grew in my heart.  It wasn't the beauty of the writing or the well-crafted story, it was the subject.  The beauty of this woman's life took the most labored of writing and brought it to life.  Ms. Carmichael is most commonly known for her missions work in India.  Hers is a story that I have known well and have known since I was a child.  I have read some of her writing and I have read a different biography on her to my children.  But at this moment in my life, her story rang clear and loud.  I related with her desires and her struggles in a way I hadn't before.  Her story not only spoke to me but my children didn't want it to end.  After I had breathed the last word and we sat in the silence,  my 11 year-old boy broke the silence with, "I don't want it to end."  This is a common sentiment for him, but we just spent a month reading about a single woman, who gave her life for Jesus. Yes, there was adventure, but still not the story I expected my kids to connect so deeply with.  We were all surprised.

Amy Carmichael's story is compelling for several reasons.  She gave her life to care for orphans and disenfranchised.  She was a rescuer.  She was fearless.  She knew her limits.  She knew her convictions. She knew how to pull away and sit at the feet of Jesus.  She knew how to work hard and get it done. She was fueled by prayer.  She allowed her heart to be broken for the lost, the hurting, and the wounded.  She loved deeply.  She wrote beautifully.  She mentored me and taught me through her life.

Her thoughts on prayer:
     1. We don't need to explain to our Father things that are known to Him.
     2. We don't need to press Him, as if we had to deal with an unwilling God.
     3. We don't need to suggest to Him what to do for He Himself knows what to do.

Inspired by The Imitation of Christ by Thomas a Kempis, Amy Carmichael gathered seven of her India sisters in Christ called "Sisters of the Common Life".  These women encouraged each other in their walk and read the Bible and Christian classics.  They created a creed that they used to remind each other of their mission.  I have come back to this over and over since we finished the book.

My Vow:  Whatsoever Thou sayest unto me, by They grace I will do it. 
My Constraint: Thy love, O Christ, my Lord.
My Confidence: Thou art able to keep that which I have committed unto Thee.
My Joy: To do Thy will, O God.
My Discipline: That which I would not choose, but which Thy love appoints.
My Prayer: Conform my will to thine.
My Motto: Love to live; live to love.
My Portion: The Lord is the portion of mine inheritance.

I leave this woman longing to walk a little closer to my God, longing to breathe his grace a little deeper and to love and rescue His little ones with more ardor.

An Experiment.... Science Friday

I am an avid reader, but I have a problem.  I don't venture out very far in my reading.  I like literary novels, classics, spiritual books that feed my soul, I love juvenile lit, and I love books on psychology, nutrition and environmentalism.  I have been trying to challenge myself to read outside of my norm.  Shortly, after challenging myself I was listening to to NPR's Science Friday (which I love) and realized that they have a book club.  I had to get in on it.  Thus, I have read the two book club reads of 2013.  The first was Andromeda Strain by Michael Crichton and the second was Gorillas in the Mist by Dian Fossey.

Andromeda Strain is not something I would generally pick up and read.  When I was in college, I really enjoyed science fiction, but since then I haven't read much in the way of science fiction.  I really enjoyed reading this book, it wasn't my favorite, but I enjoyed it.  I may of mostly relished in the fact that I was holding this book than the story.  There were moments when I was totally engaged in the story, but then it ends.  Its one of those stories that doesn't glide into the ending or let you down gently, nope, it just ends.  I left it a little bit unsatisfied, but it was fun to read a science fiction book that imagined a future in which we now live.

Gorillas in the Mist  was definitely my favorite of the two, but that might have something to do with the fact that it was closer to a book I would normally choose to read.  It is part autobiography and part textbook on gorillas.  I happened to be reading it at the same time as we were reading The One and Only Ivan as a family.  I started to fall in love with these giant animals found in the mountains of Africa.  I loved the parts of this book where she tells how she started this journey and how she studied the gorillas.  I had a harder time with the parts of the book where she was personalizing the gorillas.  That got to be a little weird to me.  But I tend to not personalize animals, others of you might love this part of it.  I had to remind myself that when she was talking about them and using names that those were names that she had given them.  I started to think about them as humans and they aren't.  It makes me wonder at her research, can one objectively research something if they are that personally involved.

Needless to say, my mind has been opened and stretched.  I have learned things I never would have thought I would have learned.  Can't wait to see what they choose for the next selections!

Much to "Wonder" about

One thing that is true about most middle schoolers is that at some point they are awkward.  There are those rare kids that are never awkward, that enter into middle school cute and leave beautiful.  But even those pass through a time of awkwardness... maybe not on the outside but most definitely on the inside.  There is some literature that is written for this age group seems to express this transition so well and when you read a book that touches your heart like this one, you want to tell the world.  We just finished a book that touched our hearts, Wonder by R.J. Palacio. My kids would say, you should read this book.  At the end of the book, Benji said, "I wish good books went on and on and never stopped."  I agree, it was hard to tell these characters goodbye, I even shed a tear or two or three.  I think its books like this that teach us compassion, empathy and beg us, as adults, to give our kids a vision, to share with them the hope for a future.

I really want to tell you everything about this book, but I can't, because you have to experience it for yourself.  You must jump in and laugh and cry and remember what it was to be in fifth grade, what it was to attempt the impossible task of trying to fit in.  But most of all you must meet Auggie, this young man that you will cheer for from beginning to end.  You will want to acquaint yourself to his mom and understand her hopes and dreams, her fears and worries.  You will love his friends and hate his friends and realize that at times the friendship you offer people has strings attached, your love is sometimes conditional.  I couldn't help asking myself, can a book like this help us to love others better, to understand their deepest needs and meet them better.  I don't know, but its worth a shot.

I must give a shout out to Ms. Palacio, way to hit it out of the park on your first book.  Thanks, for engaging our hearts and giving us much to talk about in our everyday life.  

The Gift of an Ordinary Day by Katrina Kenison

This is a coffee sipping, slow reading book.  This book begs you to sit down and take it slow, to hear her story and ponder your own.  Her words left me inspired and moved.  Being a mother isn't always easy and this mother says it with such grace.  She explores those areas of her heart that aren't ready to let go and brings the reader.  As I read it, I found myself exploring those areas in my heart.  Kenison is full of thoughtful insight and she writes with a deep beauty.  I left this book ready to love more deeply, not just my family but those around me my friends and neighbors,  The cast of characters that make up my life.  I was reminded to be thankful for the ordinary moments that so fleetingly disappear.  I am often conflicted between my role at home and my desire to change the world, the whole world, but Kenison reminded me over and over that it is in embracing my role in my home that I am changing the world.